6.10.2004

i'm starting my happy book.

i gave my friend a monogrammed journal as a gift that she has dubbed her "happy book." instead of writing about the joys and trials of life like a typical journal, she uses it as a collection point for all things "happy." pictures, copies of emails, compliments, receipts from good moments, stories of that time that made you laugh SO hard...

i'm starting my happy book today. it has been 'one of those days' and i could just use some freakin happy!

so keep your fingers crossed that the cleaners can fix my favorite dress in time for the wedding this weekend... and i'll get to work on the book.

deal? deal.

5.28.2004

in honor of my dad's birthday, i'd like to do a bit of a tribute to the coolest dad around.

ten things that make my dad the coolest:

1) he has what could easily be mistaken as either a sombrero or a ladies straw hat, wears it proudly and calls it his "sun management hat"

2) he is fiercely loyal

3) sometimes he sounds like a hick from alabama (which he in part is) and sometimes he sounds british (no one knows why!)

4) he is one of the best judges of character i have ever met

5) he loves bacon more than some people love their families

6) he has given me more chances and love than i ever deserved

7) his idea of wrapping a present is taking the bag from the store and stapling it shut

8) he still dances with my mom in the kitchen

9) he never apologizes for being himself, no matter what other people think

and finally....

10) his new restaurant has a BLOG (yeah, i barely believed it myself)

5.27.2004

decisions, decisions...

stay at apple?
go back to school?
study physical therapy?
race the triahtlon this weekend?

so much floating through my head.

5.24.2004

this weekend was wonderful! i had several confirmations/ understandings about friends that i think i really needed.

friends are an investment. the older we get, the more i start to grasp this. the time and effort i give to my friendships are an investment in those people and also in myself. i don't know if you can really know who cares about you the way you care about them until things get crazy and priorities change and life gets in the way- and then you know who keeps you on their list.

on one hand i have amazing friends from college that i will always have a BLAST with whenever i see them, and on the other hand i have friends from college i can still call at 3 in the morning when everything is going wrong and i just need to talk.

what i realized this weekend, is that for some people, i fall into that first category. i won't say that doesnt make me sad, but for the first time, i think i am going to be able to accept that and just love my friendships for what they are.

this weekend was really wonderful though. i had a GREAT time laughing with friends that i rarely get to see. i am very lucky to have such amazing people in my life.

5.11.2004

so as a follow up to the last post (i'm sure you've been on the edge of your seat, chomping at the bit to know...what happened?!!) the race was cancelled. how's that for anti-climactic? i'll have more to report after THIS thursday's race.

i am so proud of myself right now, i just have to share it with you! i know it may seem like a less than herculean task for some, but for mollie donovan, it was a monumental occasion! i had a blood test this morning!!

i was that girl in college who refused to walk through the dorm lobby during 'blood drive week' and at one point, was attempting to be added to the national bank for bone marrow donors and cried so hard that they asked me to leave because "i was scaring other people off."

i have avoided doctors and more specifically, having blood tests for the past 7 years. i havent had a complete blood chemistry test since i was 13. for me, the fear and anxiety that i associated with needles and giving blood were too overwhelming to even talk about without a rush of heat searing through my entire body.

and so, though i did not take the test with the relaxed nerves that i was hoping for, i did manage to remain in the chair through the experience and i did not cry and i did not resist the nurse that administered my test.... all baby steps that were much needed!! YAY!! : ) heehee.

5.05.2004

feliz cinco de mayo!

5th of may greetings from you favorite latin-themed site... the spicy world of hot ta-mollie.

now if only i was in the mood to shout "arriba aye aye!" and chug mexican beers and sip tequila...

tomorrow i am going to do something i've never done. i am going to do a road race crit (criterium: a short, looped, race...very fast, will probably be only 20 minutes) its no big deal for regular roadies who race a lot, but for a novice like me its a big step. i'm a bit frightened and very much intimidated by the idea and it will cost me $15, so why am i doing it? when i told my sister, she was clear in her disdain for the idea, dismissing it as crazy.

you be the judge - the crazy act of a desperate woman? or the exciting adventures of a young cyclist?
i like the challenge & i am excited even though i know i will probably completely fail. but in the end thats what eclipses the anxiety- the challenge of a new experience that will stretch myself beyond my comfort zone. lets just hope i dont crash (kevin featured prominently in green & blue ; )

4.21.2004

you know you want it.
predictable.

when did i, mollie donovan, get to be so predictable? i cruise into work today in my new ride (ok, technically still on an extended test-drive, but going at lunch to sign the papers), park her proudly in front, walk into work.

within two minutes, a virtual stranger at work that i've talked to maybe twice says, "This is a wild guess, but is that your new Red Subaru in the parking lot?"

um... hello? do i know you? what would make you jump to such a presumption? seriously, is there something about me that just screams RED SUBARU!!! or was that just an anomaly?

4.16.2004

how do i do it?

how do i get myself into the situations where inside my head i'm thinking "how did i get here and what am i doing in front of all of these people?"

now, growing up my mother called me a "ham". so what if i love being on camera? so what if i cant resist the lure of widespread audience approval? though i always thought of it as something you outgrow. surely i wouldnt always be that girl who lives for the annual talent show in elementary school...

what i think is funny about it is that there is some kind of switch that flips inside. i go from being the girl who walks through the hall with my eyes directed at the ground in front of me to the girl who stands bravely facing her entire department of 100+ acting like a total idiot... hearing their laughter... secretly loving it.
this week has been fantabulous. (if you dont count the speeding ticket on tuesday morning)

kevin's nephew was born on monday!
jude griffin, 8lbs 4oz

i went to the darkness concert on tuesday.
it was awesome- so entertaining & hilarious

birthday fun on wednesday.
erin's birthday, too much cake & sushi : )

happy hour madness on thursday.
free drinks & a free hp printer! hurray!

now its friday and the weekend awaits with promises of a fun girls' night, a 10k run, mountain bike race, & hopefully some sunny gorgeous days!

4.12.2004

my prediction for the weekend? chocolate bunnies, home cooked meals, quality time with friends and family.
the reality of my weekend? nasty food, nasty motels, and quality time with crazy mechanics.

this weekend the true reality of driving a twelve year old car hit hard. as i was crawling through waco in the thick of the easter weekend traffic, rhonda my honda got so pissed she decided we'd gone far enough. the next 20 hours or so is a blur consisting of a tow truck ride, dinner alone at applebees at the bar with weird old guys calling out "cheer up darlin, or we're gonna come sit with you!", lots of sitting on the curb listening to my ipod trying to pretend i didnt look homeless, and empty promises from the manager at a ghetto pep boys.

20 hours and $500 (curses!!) later, in my exhaustion and frustration over having spent the night in waco at a nastay motel by myself, i decided in the end to just turn around and go home when my car was ready.

on my way home i started crying, because of said exhaustion but also because my dad always gives his girls gardenia corsages on easter. its a family tradition that started with his father and i was just so sad to be spending my first easter alone and flower-less. when i was finally home, kevin came over...with a whole bush of gardenias. : )

4.07.2004

brenda sent a link this morning to a site that has re-makes of the old g.i. joe psa's. new audio galore. i was laughing so hard i shed a tear.

this one is my favorite: pork chop sandwiches!

seriously. i know its bad, but its so good.

4.05.2004

you. me. 80's night at the parish. be there.

eighties night was such roaring good fun saturday night. next time you really must go with me- who can resist a group of sweaty hipster wannabe 80's glam kids dancing and singing loudly in unison to depeche mode? it was the best night out i've had in a while... then again it was also the first night out i've had in a while...

on a totally different topic- i'm feeling entirely weird today. its monday, its rainy, and i'm grumpy. its one of those days when the clutter of life (physical, mental, emotional) feels suffocating. i think its time for some spring cleaning.

4.02.2004

lent update: today is day 38 of cheeselessness. i gotta tell you, sometimes i dont miss it at all. in fact, i've realized that some foods are just as good sans cheese. but there are moments... living in texas... when not eating queso just seems... wrong.

i can say with certainty that i've eaten healthier than usual in the past 38 days. no pizza, queso, not a single frozen meal (though they are "smart ones", still not the best choice). but have i replaced my cheese-eating with supplication? so what have i really gained? not pounds! hah.

but no matter what, in 9 days, the love affair will continue.

me + cheese = forever

3.15.2004

i am going to have to rank the wedding i attended this weekend in my top 5. why?

was it the couple? not really. they are great, but i dont really know them all that well yet.
was it the church? no, i've been to several weddings there.
the flowers? they were beautiful, but no.
the reception? it was a terrific band and dancing was awesome, but still...no.

all of these things contributed to it being such an amazing event, but i genuinely can say that the reason this wedding was 'top 5' for me was my date. being at a celebration of true love with your true love... nothing compares to that!! it was wonderful.

check out our pictures: www.homepage.mac.com/molliedonovan

3.04.2004

as most of you know, i'm a captain for the new 'team in training' triathlon team. we're raising money for the leukemia and lymphoma society and racing in america's triathlon.

we're having a rockin fundraiser in a few weeks. its gonna be lots of fun- come relax after you run the cap 10k, or drive on over after church, or just mosey on by after you sleep in ;) there will be some great bands, good food, and its all for a fantastic cause.
i went and saw "the passion of the christ" last night. i'm still thinking about it. i'm sure i will be for some time.

one thing is certain: its a beautiful film and masterful effort by all involved.

i left the movie feeling broken, having seen myself in the actions of those that deny him, judge him, disbelieve him, persecute him, and dismiss him. i had a strongly emotional reaction to the film and i really do reccommend you see it if you havent already.

3.03.2004

i'm a sucka for advertising. love this new ad.

2.13.2004

yes, yes. and yes again! check THIS out.

2.11.2004

rainy days like this make me wanna be home in bed, under a blanket, with a book, and a boy.

speaking of my boy- he gave me gorgeous vibrant orange gerber daisies last night. he just never ceases to amaze me.

1.25.2004

so why is it *exactly* that i wanna be sydney bristow so bad?

honestly, all you have to do is give me a good, solid indian rug-burn, all of my secrets are yours. i have no tolerance for pain and (though i've never tried it...) i seriously doubt my ability to look even half as hot fighting international crime sydicates while scantily clad.

1.15.2004

ladies and gentleman, i have an announcement to make.

you might wanna sit down. for reals. achem. okay...i'm not sure how to say this.

it happened. one of my dreams has come true.

I GOT MY IPOD. 40-freakin-gig, baby! and it was F-R-E-E!! wooo hooo : ) ah, the benefits of working for a company that actually takes care of its employees!

hells yeah. i'm giddy as a school girl.

1.13.2004

have you ever thought about how many people think they "know" you because you use the same words and read the same books and talk about the same movies?

how many people really know you? all of you. how many people do you have in your life that accept and celebrate all of your different facets?

i'm a lucky girl.

1.09.2004

so long austin! frown. : (

i'm headed to cupertino, california for the next two weeks- aka. apple headquarters. lets hope this training ends up being worthwhile rather than just a bunch o' kool-aid drinking.

just in case... i'll bring my straw.

1.06.2004

big news this morning for the ipod : )

the ipod mini! its so cute! and of course is just fueling my growing desire that will surely result in a credit card purchase one of these days!

1.02.2004

happy 2004!

i started the year in what is my new tradition- swimming at barton springs! its a bit of a catharsis in a way. it feels good to start the year with overwhelming joy and hope for the upcoming 364 days.

so far i've spent the majority of my year celebrating with friends (check out the pictures on my website) and satisfying this overwhelming desire to organize my house. first came my bedroom- i dare you to try and find a dust bunny left in that room! today started with a trip to target to purchase organizing bins. oh the excitement! hah.

12.23.2003

merry christmas! i genuinely wish each and every one of you a happy, smiling, warm, loving, spirited celebration of the birth of the savior of our lives.

the past few days have had me taken over by a spirit of the holidays to the extent that i am just wanting to love on my friends non-stop! i feel completely and totally blessed this Christmas in so many different ways that i didn't expect and didn't even know i could dare to hope for this year.

emotions are running so close to the edge these days that i actually cried this morning while i was getting ready for work because i was watching a tivo'ed oprah about children in south africa!! i'm really getting out of control! : ) heehee

12.22.2003

ok, i really REALLY want an ipod.

12.19.2003

check out my new website- www.homepage.mac.com/molliedonovan- created lovingly by my ".mac" account. we've gone multimedia! : )

12.09.2003

$5 if anyone can sit me down and explain a front side bus and why oh WHY is it such a big deal for 64 bit processing to break the 4gig ceiling?

are you as confused as me? try listening to this for 8 hours a day in training!

seriously though, as crazy as learning all of that apple-talk is, the job is going well so far. cool people abound.

so when i'm drunk at your holiday party this year and i start talking about motherboards, just shake your head and move on. heehee.

12.07.2003

i have been bed/couch-ridden for the last 3 days with one NASTY case of strep throat (seriously yall, the doc had to prescribe a vicodin-esque pain killer just so i could swallow...and you know about me and vicodin!)

the following are my obervations:
1) it is shockingly harder to be witty when your verbal abilities are reduced by 50% or more - i'm not a physical comedy girl
2) you realize that you have certain friends who you can just sit with, talking isnt required to enjoy them
3) tlc has some kind of design or life makeover show on the air pretty much 24/7
4) tivo's positives include saving you from having to watch infomercials at 3am

now i just have to make sure i can talk by monday- when i start my new jobby job.

12.03.2003

11.24.2003

who says that its bad things that always happen in threes?

three was my favorite number growing up - i always wanted to be number 3 in softball, basketball, you name it. if the jersey number 00 was taken (undoubtably the coach's daughter got this one, what was universally known as the coolest number on the team) i was first in line to get number three. or 03 as it was on the jersey.

so this year, ironically enough in '03, i've done some odd things in threes. three places of residence. three moves for my family members. three important relationships in my life experienced major change. and now three jobs!

my mom, whose decorating taste has always eclipsed my own, is a staunch believer in decorating in threes. three vases, three pictures, etc. i believe the rule having something to do with the visual stimulation of the odd number. so now that i've done things in threes, i believe my life is visually pleasing enough for me to be calm and content and give all of this rearranging a rest!

at least for the rest of the year (....kidding.)
in case you havent heard:

au revoir & bonjour

just a heads up that you should look forward to many future posts extolling the greatness of the ipod i'm gonna buy with my employee discount. oh yeah baby.

11.17.2003

my dog died. and i wasnt there. i'm not even close enough to get to pet her goodbye.

who else other than my family has been with me since i was twelve?
who else would have kept me safe all of those times i camped out in the back yard?
who else could have made my brother so happy and proud?

it just seems like so much to let go of.

11.07.2003

sic 'em bears.

this weekend i'll be drinking ninfaritas, throwing back a big O at george's while juice newton blasts from the jukebox, hanging out at the tent outside the football game (where all the real action takes place!). there is something very nostalgic about going back to your college town and visiting old haunts.

it should be a really good weekend. as a very smart man put it, i'll be going to the game, not to see baylor lose, but to see tech win.

11.05.2003

ready for the "revolutions"? i am. if you need to play catch up, check this out.

dont forget to brush off your pocket protector and snap on your suspenders... its dork time. (credit for that joke goes squarely to storeythegreat)

11.03.2003

get ready for another mushy post...

so i am sitting at my desk at work (getting a lot done! hah) and i realized through something a friend just emailed me that my biggest gift this weekend was just loving my friends. it is a gift to surround myself with people who truly love me the way that i love them. it is a refreshing and wonderful place to be in my life to know that i am choosing to surround myself with positive people who add value to who i am.

and for those of you wondering what happened to cynical mollie...

check this out- i was reading a cnn article this morning (like i said, getting a lot of work done!) and i came across this quote: A University of Chicago survey, released earlier this year, found that most think adulthood begins at age 26.

shit.

10.31.2003

10.30.2003

i am really really excited about my birthday, but not in my typical 'hooray for halloween' fashion. don't get me wrong, i'm still looking forward to handing out candy and hanging with friends dressed en costume drinking lots of alcohol on 6th street. but honestly, i had a hard time even getting excited about dressing up this year.

this year my enthusiasm about my birthday is all about growing up- and not in a "holy crap i'm in my upper 20's" way, in a "wow, i am really happy to be where i am" way. it feels good to be happy in my life regardless of all of the crap that happened this year- i am doing better than ever.

so as i wax on nostalgically about turning 26 and enjoy the last 36 hours or so of my 25th year, just know that if you're reading this, you most likely had a hand in getting me to this place of contentment. thank you. i couldn't ask for a better birthday present.

10.27.2003

t minus 4 days to 26. thank goodnes. 25 kinda sucked.

well, i should say more accurately that most of 25 sucked. either way, even though i dont like the sound of the number 26 and being in my 'upper 20's' really sucks to my assmar... i'm ready.

now if i could only get my halloween costume in order...

9.23.2003

rollercoasters are really only fun at the state fair.

i had my own mini rollercoaster this morning and i am pleased as punch to say that despite the white knuckle grip i had after opening an email from my ex-boyfriend (names have been changed to protect the privacy of those involved...wink wink) i was actually able to loosen my grip, throw my hands over my head, let go of my fear and exit promptly to the left as soon as the car came to a halt.

not to say that i enjoyed the ride, but hey, at least i didnt throw up.

9.22.2003

this weekend @ acl fest was truly amazing. i had so many memorable and wonderful experiences...

being in awe of shawn colvin's spunk and wonderful family ties while listening to her melodic voice

rocking out with liz phair but wondering who gave her that outfit to wear and where she was hiding her angst in that mini skirt

swaying to alexi murdoch and wanting to touch his beautiful curly hair

napping in the sun while listening to the friends of johnny cash honor his legacy of amazing tunes

feeling entirely moved by the truth in patty griffin's lyrics to 'let him fly' and wondering how a woman so small could be so strong

letting g.love take me back to sitting in my dorm room freshman year of college listening to his music in a desperate effort to be cool

enjoying how polyphonic spree causes me to spontaneously jump around and smile so big

the beautiful coyness in ben harper's voice only momentarily distracting me from my desire to throw my panties at such a gorgeous man

the classic comfort in r.e.m.'s tunes that seem to tie so many different times in my life together.

the amazing gifts of the weekend weren't all limited to the musical genius that descended upon austin for three days. it was a great weekend because i got to share all of these things with my sister and my wonderful friends.

9.19.2003

take back the night!

this is it folks, the weekend i've been waiting for. i'm not going to let anything get in my way THIS YEAR. austin city limits music festival starts today! due to the most unfortunate of circumstances ever, my plans were ruined last year the day before the festival...but nothing...and i mean nothing is getting in my way this time!

i am so excited! can you tell?! i have had the craziest week ever and its about to be topped off with the craziest weekend ever and i couldnt be more thrilled.

expect a full report on monday... until then... if youre not with me in austin...be jealous. ; )

9.17.2003

R I P

here lies mollie's blog. it died of neglect after only 4 precious months of life.

i've been thinking about it and i think i'm going to try and pull a lazarus and resurrect this sucker. no promises. : )

8.25.2003

here are some new words to flex your brain muscles with (not to mention how much they'll help you win friends and influence people, ha!)

Sarchasm: The gulf between the author of sarcastic wit and the person who doesn't get it.

Foreploy: Any misrepresentation about yourself for the purpose of getting laid.

Dopeler effect: The tendency of stupid ideas to seem smarter when they come at you rapidly.

8.14.2003

its 80 degrees right now. at 4pm. in august. in TEXAS. damn, i love this weather.

8.07.2003

are you currently attempting without avail to be considered tragically hip and poised on the cutting edge of up-and-coming music? i'm not, but if YOU are... check out the streaming volkswagen radio stations, radio vw. there are 4 stations with somewhat distinct sounds. they're supa cool.

8.06.2003

i'm about to blow your mind in two ways.
1) by blogging more than once today. (i admit, i've been bad lately!)
2) by bringing this whole blog thing full circle

okay, my second actual blog was all about the guest character on 24 and my super human ability to place him in 1985's Teen Wolf...remember? (probably not!) i was watching seinfeld episode "the big salad" and noticed something that is probably not at all exciting to anyone else but me, but i'm putting it here anyway.

in this episode, the guy at the stationary store is stiles from Teen Wolf aka jerry levine!

AND the girl george is dating (who takes credit for elaine's big salad) is president palmer's press secretary from 24!

AND she's from austin!

so we have mollie in austin, writing about scott paulin who guest stars on 24 after appearing in Teen Wolf with jerry levine who later has a bit part on seinfeld in the same episode with michelle forbes, hailing from austin, who will go on to star as the press secretary on 24 with scott paulin!

whew. did that make anyone else tired and/or confused? and have i managed to impress you with my vast knowledge of horrible actors?
what do you get when you put together two of your favorite things? more than just peanut butter and jelly, my friends!

check out this new ingenious and overdue partnership between volkswagen and macintosh! (not to mention i LOVE the polyphonic spree song as the soundtrack)