thankful. i'm incredibly thankful.
thankful to be a person of faith and that the holy spirit has carried me through so many days lately. let's face it, dealing with separation anxiety vs. being buried in a collapsed building in haiti? i have it pretty darn good. yet the holy spirit is with me every moment, carrying me and guiding me and giving me the strength that i need to face the every day challenges that i face being a mother, a wife, a sister, a business owner, a friend, a daughter.
i often feel like i have learned more about my relationship with God through having my children. when they whine and cry for something just beyond their reach, i think 'is that how i sound to God when i am not getting exactly what i want, the moment i want it?' or when they can't fully understand my love for them or my reasons for discipline i think 'they don't quite have the capacity to understand this fully, yet i will persevere... is that how God feels about his love for me and my limited understanding of who He is in fullness?'
and so i plug along, wondering if i am living a fraction of the life that God has planned for me and when and where i will choose to impact more than the small circle of influence that i currently reside comfortably within. i know there is so much more for me to do, yet some days it is all i can do to just make it through the day with my patience and sanity in tact. and in truth, it is God who carries me through.
God is good. i'm thankful for that.