2.13.2013

 just another day.  headed to my sister's house to take a walk we've taken many times before.  my parents were in town to help her through a husband-less week with her 4 babes and we wanted to celebrate fat tuesday with a pancake dinner.  kevin was in the midwest for work, we were ready for valentine parties at school the next day.

as we headed toward the playground on scooters, going south on the safe residential sidewalk, my sweet niece rode her scooter through a cross street without stopping for adult approval.  eve paused long enough to say 'mommy i bet you're proud of me for being safe.'  i assured her i was very proud.

one block later my eve was a house length ahead of me on her scooter when a pick-up truck headed down the street decided to hop into reverse and swing backwards into the driveway my little baby was scooting past.

in slow motion i remember my dad saying something under his breath about the driver.  i have a split second of memory thinking he was worried about nothing.  i didn't see what he saw.  i didn't see what was about to happen.  i could have never imagined it.

eve even saw him coming at the last second she hopped off her scooter to start backwards as i ran screaming down the street.  the kind of scream that a neighbor cringes to hear.  the scream of a terrified mother worried about losing the most precious gift she has ever been trusted to love.  as i watched her tumble under the car my mind went white.  i was clawing at my dad screaming 'call 911' so loudly i think it was nearly silent.

i climbed under the car to find her.  she was trapped beneath the running pick-up truck with the metal bar of her scooter pinning her to the sidewalk.  she couldn't breathe but she could scream.  it was the hardest worst saddest scariest longest shortest minutes of my life.  i couldn't stop the truck.  i couldn't get her out from underneath.    

i couldn't protect her but god did.  he held her safely in the palm of his hand while the world tumbled around her.  the accident was not a surprise to him and he held her tight and most of all SAFE.

once we freed the scooter from its wedged spot under the car, i clawed my way to her and i pulled her onto my lap shaking.  i laid on my back on the pavement with her on top, too scared to look at her face to see where the blood was coming from.  not ready to know if her face would ever look the same.  if her physical body was changed forever.  just holding her spirit i found myself praying out loud rocking on the sidewalk.

as the ambulance came the realization that i had two other children watching this horrible moment hit me hard.  i saw them down the block being loved by my dad, mom and sister and i was immensely grateful that if i couldn't stop their tears, they were with the people that love them just like i do.

the ride to the hospital.  the x-rays.  c-collars.  MRI's.  pain management.  retelling the one visual i wanted to completely forget over and over for each new professional who entered our room.  how can a memory soften and have grace when you have to remind yourself every hour?  hearing that cry.  remembering the panic.  my shaking hands.  her beating heart.

today she is healthy and in good spirits.  she has a skull fracture and three vertebrae fractures.  we will know more and we will manage it.  

us?  kevin and i have our eve.  my girls have their sister.  we are the luckiest people in town.  we have spent the last two days wrapped in the love and prayers of our friends in a way i never imagined possible.  we are blessed.

51 comments:

Kristin B said...

Oh my gosh, that is so incredibly scary and such a fear I have for my 2 boys. I'm glad she is ok!

Sarah Bessey said...

Terrifying, Mollie. Praying still and always. Kiss your wee girl for me, okay?

Dan King said...

mollie... dude... i've been praying so hard for you guys over the last couple of days! this hit really close to home for me as we recently had a close call with our 20-month old little girl running out into the street. we were lucky... REALLY lucky. i can't tell you how glad i am to hear that eve is doing okay.

Anonymous said...

Wow mollie , praying for sweet eve and so happy to hear she is doing well. I can't imagine what you and your family are going through. First heard the news on mc and have been thinking of you guys constantly. God bless your amazing family!!

Eric Doggett said...

So sorry to hear about this. We have been praying for you since we heard a few days ago. I hope she gets to come home soon!

amy said...

Praying for your family. I cannot even begin to imagine...

Elizabeth Blank said...

Mollie, I have tears streaming down my face and a pit in my stomach reading about your reality. Thanks be to God for holding your sweet, precious Eve in the palm of His hand and may you all feel His presence in the coming days as you begin to heal, physically and emotionally, from this. Much love...to Eve, you and your entire family.

April Ochs said...

I have been praying so very hard for your little one as is the rest of my family. So happy that things look to be okay! God is good!!!

Andrea said...

I can't even imagine going through that. I cry just reading your story. Thanking God she is such a strong child and you have amazing prayer and faith around you. Thank you for sharing. It will make each and every one of us mothers hold on just a little tighter to our little ones. HUGS.

Joy Capps said...

I'm so glad she is OK! Praying for continued recovery and peace for all of you.

Amy said...

I have been praying for you and your sweet girl ever since I heard about this. I'm so glad she's doing okay.

Jenny Childress said...

I am a KKW teacher with Ashlye Bays in room 213 and I want you to know that your sweet family has been covered in prayer. I am praying for you specifically. As a momma I cannot imagine what all you went through. Please let me know if you need anything at all.

Stephanie said...

How incredibly terrifying! I'm so glad she's okay! Your Eve is only a couple months older than my Charlotte, so I can't even imagine. I don't who that truck driver is, but man, I can't help but go straight to hatred. I'm sure it was an accident, but how could you not look in a neighborhood where children might be?!

Praying for you and your sweet Eve.

Jamie Ivey said...

Wow, thanks for sharing and for showing us your love for her and your strength in that moment. Strength you didn't even know you had!
:)Jamie

Dorette said...

That is so scary! You're story had tears streaming down my face - I think it is every parent's worst nightmare.

SO glad little E is going to be ok - we serve an awesome God!

I'll keep Eve and the rest of your family in my prayers. Praying for continued healing - both physically and emotionally.
Blessings from South Africa

His Woman said...

Dearest Mollie... Praying for you and your family. Ali S.'s former church community here in Boston has your family on our prayer list. God is so good. We are standing with you - holding Ms. Eve up for His best.

Katie said...

Mollie, this is the most heart-wrenching blog post I've ever read.
Eve and your family are in my thoughts here in Australia. I shed tears for your heartache.

Erin MacPherson said...

Oh, wow. I'm so sorry you had to see this! But I'm also so grateful that our sweet and precious and VERY LOVED Eve is okay! Thank you for sharing your story.

Anonymous said...

Praying for Eve ♥ Thank God she is going to be ok.

Anonymous said...

I have been praying for sweet Eve with my 2 girls and while alone with the Lord. We asked for His grace and His provision. He is so good to us. I am blessed to read your blog and know that she is ok. I am the aunt of a friend of yours.... Kristin Cox, and she passed your post along. It has made my morning to know that Eve will be ok and that once again to be shown how magnificient the God we serve is. I pray blessings on your family. I pray that the memories of that day fade enough to make it bearable but stay significant enough that Eve's story impacts this world for HIM.
B

The Mastromarino Matriarch said...

I am so glad to hear that she is doing well! Your family has been in my thoughts and prayers and will continue. You and your family are loved. God has big plans for Eve so he knew he could not take her when she is needed here to do his work.

amyluna said...

Mollie, i am so sorry that this has happened to sweet Eve. Since i saw this on fb i haven't stopped thinking (and praying) for you and your family. I know i don't know you but i hope you feel the love from me and my family. My daughter Claire prayed for Eve last night and hopes that she is ok. Thank you for sharing this heartbreaking yet hopeful story with us.

Sarah @ Loved Like the Church said...

When I got the text Tuesday about her accident my heart cried out for you all. I am so sorry you guys experienced this, but praise the Lord that Eve is ok. She is a precious girl and I am so grateful that our powerful God keeps her in His hands.

Laura M said...

I cannot even imagine...Thank God Eve is doing well. Prayers will continue to be sent your way as you wrangle your thoughts and feelings going forward :)

candy said...

I don't know how you were able to put this to words already but the grace of God is with you and Eve. I hope and prayer that Eve has a short stay and is home soon.

Whitney said...

Mollie, my heart is in my throat as I read this. I am so thankful that sweet Eve is okay. Prayers are coming your way from Atlanta.

Anonymous said...

Prayers, prayers, prayers, for Eve and for your whole family. I am amazed at the eloquence you have writing down what happened. Your strength is beyond measure. Best wishes for a smooth recovery for Eve and for the girls, it must have been so scary for them as well to witness. Oh my goodness. God bless you all. - Kerrin G.

Casey Marteny said...

I am so glad that she its ok! God really is Great! I hope your (and your family's) memories of the event fade and are replaced with the fact that your beautiful baby is still with you :)

Meegs said...

I'm just sitting here with my mouth hanging open... I can't even fathom how you must have felt at that moment. So many prayers coming your way, and so much love. Hoping her recovery is as easy and quick and complete as possible.

What did the truck drive say? What did he do?

Sara said...

Oh Mollie - prayers being sent your way. So glad to hear that Eve will recover!

Kristin said...

Absolutely terrifying. I'm so glad that your sweet Eve is okay, we are sending hugs and prayers to you guys!

Kristin (MC)

The Writer Chic said...

Oh Mollie....so thankful that He was protecting you all.

Jess Cadena said...

So so scary! I'm glad to read the update for Eve and that she is doing well regardless of the traumatic experience. Giving many thanks above for the good turn out <3

Clarissa Bing said...

I'm so glad that Eve is ok. One of my worst nightmares as a mother, I can't even imagine going through that. Prayers for all of you.

Resha said...

Oh Mollie. I can't imagine what that must have been like. We sat as a family and prayed for Eve Tuesday night, and I have continued to pray for her several times a day. Words can never express how glad we are to hear that she is going to be okay. Huge hugs to you and the entire family. :-)

Mic said...

wow! that is so scary. i had to skip to the end first to make sure she was going to be ok because reading it was so excruciating.
thank God she is going to be ok. your Godly perspective is such an amazing witness.
xo

molly said...

you are wrapped in prayer! bless your family and brave sweet little eve!!

Afton said...

Mollie you are such an amazing mother-- your words were very moving and very real-- thank you for sharing. I'm so glad Eve will be okay and God was there to protect her. You are in my prayers.

Lisa B said...

Oh my gosh. I'm am so happy that she is going to be ok. So scary.
I don't even have any more words.

Unknown said...

oh Mollie - tears are streaming down my face. I love how you had so much faith that our heavenly Father was holding her right at that moment keeping her SAFE.
You all are amazing. Big hugs and prayers to all of you and especially sweet, precious Eve.

kim said...

Hi Mollie,
My daughter Emma is in class at KKW with sweet Eve. So glad she is ok! We have been praying for her and Em is so happy that her friend will be back at school soon! So sorry you had to live through all of those moments yet so glad you had a multitude of people praying.

Jen said...

So glad that she is okay and that you and your family have so many wonderful people in your life.

born ambitious. born imaginative. said...

praying for you all...

Larisa said...

oh mollie, I can't imagine. I'm glad she will recover.

Gina said...

I am sorry that you all are going through this. What a blessing that she is ok. I will pray for your family and miss Eve.

Ashlye Bays said...

Love you all so much and feel so honored to have been able to watch and share and see Gods love, protection, and security surround precious Eve. Many thanks be to God. Praying daily and thinking of you often. What a true testimony this is. Thank you for sharing what I can't even imagine had to be the most terrifying event. Big hugs from Bryson to his "my lady".

SunshineandSpices said...

I am so sorry this happened to you. I've been following your blog since the days on "the nest" and I was shocked to see this. You and your family are in my family's thoughts and prayers.

Gloria H said...

I had tears in my eyes now the second time I've read your post. So thankful your baby is ok.

Glenda J said...

Mollie, many prayers from Ohio and Kentucky have been prayed for Eve ever since I heard the news. And we continue to pray for the entire family.

Glenda

KK said...

What a horrible experience...I cannot even imagine. Prayers to you, your family and your sweet baby Eve.

Anonymous said...

I'm a random blog reader since The Bump days and I follow you on Instagram. I saw the pictures of sweet Eve in the hospital and didn't know what had happened but was worried for her and your family. Reading this post made me cry, but I'm so glad that Eve will be okay and hope eventually your heart is okay too. Thoughts and prayers to you!