stress and frustration can be all consuming and i have been so anxious lately i have a hard time even managing a deep breath (though a full term baby inside has a little something to do with that...). i waiver back and forth between wanting to get tasks done to feel the satisfaction and calm that comes from an orderly and clean house to wanting to lay on the couch and be lazy and let it all build up...
so far the task side of me has won over and i'll admit i have a level of calm about the house being in order before chaos insues. nothing adds to stress like a toddler who is exercising their new-found 'independence' but on the other side of that coin, nothing can make stress melt away like the laughter that same toddler brings you on a daily basis.
watching a baby turn into a toddler is an amazing thing. hearing the things that come out of their mouth brings so much joy and laughter and awe every single day.
i was so frustrated the other day that i gave up trying to be productive and took lily into the bathroom with me to take a long hot relaxing shower. as i stood there relishing the hot water, i did what any reasonable pregnant woman would do at that moment... and then heard my 21 month old child point to the floor of the shower and excitedly call out 'YELL YOWWWW!'
i could not stop laughing and had to actually sit next to her and give her the biggest hug and finally managed to say 'you're right lily, that was yellow' :)